Weekend Update

What a weekend. I intended to chronicle the events, and chiefly the food, but right now I have so many different thoughts and emotions ricocheting between my ears that I can't even hold one still long enough to fully describe. And if I could, I wouldn't share. Maybe I'm just full and content, with my tank topped off again thanks to the last few days. A long hot shower and a night's rest are all I need now, and I know I will fall asleep quickly and sleep like a newborn, eager to dream and learn more tomorrow.

I find myself reflecting on the ways relationships change over time. The way I make friends and keep them. How to realize when once-close comrades have left your team, and how to remember those great times from the past in their own right without comparing them to right now. The habit of growing closer to others without noticing, only to discover suddenly how much you communicate without needing to clarify. The surprise of reconnecting after time apart with little talk and finding none was needed regain the same level of friendship. The unspoken, resigned letting go when we both know that our outlook and values are no longer compatible due to changes in our lives and maturity. Recognizing that moment when habits that were once unfamiliar are now something to grin at, and depend on, not because I like the traits, but because I love my friend.

It's a lot like fractionation (geology term). Things change, recycle into new emotions and events, but the process eventually and inevitably continues in only one direction. Memories can only accumulate. If I believed in God, I would give thanks for that, but as is, I'll just say, what a great way to live.

Alright, enough of this horseshit. I swear, I haven't even been drinking.
In the words of my West Virginia rafting buddies,

WA-HOO-WA, MOTHERFUCKERS!!

Gotta love it all.

Don't give it up, you've got an empty cup only love can fill.